The Puppet Show

Hhyesss….kali ni aku nak ckp semborono jerk..kalu ader yg terasa..then im so sorry..but it serves u rite…tp kanpe nak tersa lak..kalu da kenyataan kenap perlu takut pd bayang2??bayang2 tu kn sahabat setia yg selalu ngn kite…yaalahh..kalu difikirkn logic..mmg la takut pd bayang2..sbb dia tau segala apery g kiter lakukn…anehkn..kiter hidup bkn nyer lame…tp hidup yg sekejap nih tak pernah nk kiter aman kn..mesti kite nak kacau dan bilaukn…lame sgt ke hidup…kiter slalu ckp..aku ader masalah la..tp bkn kiter sndri ker yg suke mencari masalah??kiter yg suke mengocak air yg tenang..suke menduga gunung yg tinggi…dan..yg kiter paling suke menyusahkn org laen…

Tak payahla bangga sgt hidup kat msia sbg org melayu..ape yg nak dibanggakn sgt????tnyer balik pd diri sndri..aper yg kiter lakukn utk tanah air kiter ni???kalu terdiam sndri..lalu jgn lah murka bila bangsa lain mempertikaikn nyer..mmg..ramai anak melyu yg kat overseas..masuk university..berbondong2 orang kampong bangga..ikut hanta…tp..masa depannya..hanya utk perut sndri..tak usahla nak mengaharp jasa kpda Negara…mak bapak sndri pon terlupa…aku pon masuk university gak..namun yg aku pasti..aku ptot berterima aksih..kalu bkn sbb kuota utk aku sbg melayu..aku tak mampu menghirup udara di bumi indah uia ni…lalu..aper yg nk di bangga sgt sbg melayu???rmi kwn2 aku..n bdk2 melayu yg ke overseas..namun..aku akan selalu tertunggu2 kebaikn yg diorang bawak kn utk anak bangsa dan Negara…aku selalu doakan mereka Berjaya…tp…betapa ramai pon kiter di luar sana..knapa masih ade yg tak mengenali msia..apa gampang ya msia ini???mereka ni patot disuruh mempromosikn Negara sndri..tp yg ramai nyer..pergi ke negara2 lain pulak..aneh…negara sndri ekonomi terumbang-ambing….anak melayu kiter sibuk menjelajah Negara org..memantapkn ekonomi mereka..yg paling aneh..ader yg sanggup gagalkn paper exam..so..they can extend the duration of living there…sedihnyer….penat2 penoreh menoreh getah membayar cukai..hasilnye dapat ke Negara asing jugek…ssh kn ????mungkin la..cabaran blajar di sana tak sme ngn kitorang yg blaja di sini…mungkin..kalu aku blaja di sana..aku pon mcm tu jgak…so..no offence k..hohohoooo…

Ader jgak yg iri hati..cancer paling teruk yg aku penah jumpa dlm diri org melayu nih..biarlah pakar cancer terhebat di dunia pom..pemenang hadiah nobel pon belum tntu dpt ubatkn penyakit nih…bangsa len pon ader gak..tp kiter la pling teruk…dulu samy velu pnah ckp..org india..org cina..kalu org tu kt atas…dia tarik sekali sedara mara dia ..kwn2 dia naik atas skali..tp kiter dia ckp..kalu kat atas..org bawah sibuk buat kiter duduk bawah…I guess dats da very reason..napa bangsa kiter tak pernah capai 40% ekonomi utk mesia…setiap DEB..itulas fasa yg tak pernah di ubah…mungkin fasa tu harus wajib dlm perlembangaan mesia pulak…la la bebulu org2 kat bar council tuh..huhuhu…lalu..jgn la kiter nk marah kalu bangsa lain sibuk mertikaikn hak kiter..sbb kiter sndri tak pndi nak guna kn hak tu..setakat merpertahan kn tp tak gunakan buat ape kn??pisau baru..lama2 tak pakai tumpul jua..tp kalu di pakai..lagi di asah..belakang nyer pon tutut tajam…setuju?????????????

Nasihat aku…jgn la asyik piker nak jatuhkn org lain…da takder kerja sgt ke???pikirla cara2 nak elakkn org kat dunia ni dari mati kebulr setiap hari..pikirla cara nk hentikan perang pihak zionis dan umat islam…kat Iraq..kat palestin…u see…beza kiter ngan monyet hanyalah 3% dri jumlah kromosom yg ade..tp syg nyer..lgik 3% tu kiter gunakn hanya utk memburuk kn keadaan…mungkin monyet2 tu bersyukur krna mereka kekurangan 3% tuh…hurm….tak baik…sibuk2 nak jatuhkn org lain…money is not everything…pejam jer mata..beg2 prada..lv..coach..sumer tu kena tinggal..keter besa maner pn..hantar kiter ke kubur pon tak..jdik watpe nak semakkn kubur ngan dosa2 kiter??????????????????????berbaloi ker???????????????????????????buat la bnda baik..hidup yg fana ni sekali jer…hidup yg kekal tuh hasil nye adalah natijah dari hari ini…smpi bile kiter ni akan terus jd mcm ni??????????????puas ker tgk org lain sedih??puas ker tgk org lain susah payah…puas ker hati tgk org lain berhempas pulas??puas ker hati tgk org lain susah??lalu..bezaa ape nyer kiter ngan haiwan..kalu hanya nk memuaskn tuntutan hati dan nafsu????hmmmmmmmmm….

Dahla…coretan yg sikit ni pasti takkn dpt mengubah hati2 yg semak tuh…so..teruskn lah apery g korang buat skrg…sbb korang kn da bagus sgt….

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holaaaa….

its been a while….tak taulaaa…tak tau nak rasa aper skrg…cume bole doa n doa lgik….final exam..baba…hurm….moral of the story..life is always accompany by problems…..do not run..face it..with style…after all running away wont solve the matters….plus…problems is not always a problems…trust me….family law 2…..i like this subject…but again…bole score tak???tercapai tak impian aku nk naik kn pointer sem ni???doa syera!!pray hard!!!!…

salam….holaa…..huhuh…kesian org sakit nih..cis…tak wat pon test succession..sob..sob…sediy…jdik jnji saya pd diri sendri..famly wat betol2 la…imagining myself as a lecturer teaching family law..kn syg??huuhuu… jnji kat diri gak..jgn sibuk hal org laen lgik…im not dat noble..b4..now..or after…i hve my family..i hve my hearthrob…wut else..???n i hve frens who really accept n take me for who i am…thus..i wont bother bout those stupid things nymore….i hve my future to b think of..n my study….

kadang2 hidup ni jadik rumit..bile kite selalu fikirkn masalah..slalu kiter lupa ttg org yg lagi teruk kehidupan nye..kiter selalu tunduk pd masalah..dan kiter lupe yg setiap masalah tu akan ader jln penyelesaian nya..kan itu janji ALLAh…Allah takkn dtg kn ujian kalau umatnye tak mampu menghadapi ujian itu!!!!..maka pada ape harus kite runsingkn lgik???berdoa laa…dekat kn diri dgn Allah..DIA yg Maha Mengetahui…kite ni bile dlm masalah..mula la bandingkn diri dgn org sekeliling…kdg2 terlupa sape yg sayang dan hargai diri sendri..itulah timbul rasa hasad dan dengki..padahal bersaudara dalam titik garisan AGAMA yg same…BANGSA yg same…lalu pada sape yg harus disalahkn kalu bukan diri sendiri….dan mula lah..kita akan acap kali menyalahkn sang takdir….sedangkn takdir itu hanyalah satu alasan mudah untuk seorang manusia yg tak pernah rasa BERSYUKUR!!!!!!…kite kah yg tamak??mahukan sesuatu yg bukan kita punya???mengimpikn sesuatu yg mungkin hak org lain..lalu pada sape yg harus disalahkn???si nasib pula yg di menungkn..kenapa la begini nasib aku…sedangkn kiter slalu lupa yg keadaan kite hari ini adalah natijah hari semalam….lalu..kenapa kiter harus salahkn org sekeliling..takdir…dan nasib??????kalu aper yg berlaku hari ini adalah HASIL kiter pd hari semalam???????

Teringat pada sahabat di sekolah dulu..penah dia putus harapan utk hidup demi seorang lelaki..namun..hari ini..dia bangkit..mengemis ilmu bersama2 umat yg lain..doaku..moga Allah akan selalu membantu dia agar sentiasa jd kuat….itukn yg lebih baik..tidak tunduk pd TAKDIR dan NASIB…dia bangkit dari terus meratapi nasib dan takdir yg dulu tak menyebelahinya…

nasihat aku utk sume…percayalah pd TUHAN…DIA MAha ADIL…Maha MENGETAHUI setiap satu yg ade di langit dan di bumi….berdoalah..sesungguhnya…Allah amat suka pada umatNYA yg selalu meminta-minta dariNYA…

Doa aku utk sume….Moga kiter akan terus menghirup tenang di muka bumi ini..kerana esok lusa..tenang itu mungkin takde lgik…moge ape yg kite inginkn dan doakan akan dikurniakan Allah….semoga kiter sume akan sellau bahagia…..amin…..insyaALLAh…..

p/s: terima kaseh gastrik..adehhh…..

salamz….when im at a pinch…i used to eat a lot..n sleep a lot..i dont want know everything that happens around me..rite now..gloomily..i still takin note what happening so dat i dont feel left out later..loh…im such a complicated person i ever known..if people ever asked me..whats wrong wif me now..i cant possibly asnwer dat since i myself dont have a ny single idea whats wrong wif me….heheheh………

i want things to work out…u know..things like wut im thinking nw…i dont want to loose everything that ive today..but i want more..bkn tak bersyukur..cuma aku tak rasa aku bole hilang bnda ni…bkn nak jd org yg tak tahu pikir bnda laen..cume aku rasa hidup aku takkan sama tnpa dia….bkn nak cari masalah..cuma bile dgn dia..sume masalah pon selesai…hurm………….

salam….

Kalau di ikut kata hati…manusia akan mati..tp bkn ke kate hati yg selalu betul??dan akal yg slalu menimbangkn rasional perbuatan kita..sungguh akal manusia ni terhad..kdg2 ade sesuatu yg tak tercapai dek akal kite..hurm…mcm aku laa..

aku suke pikir bkn2…well..muaz ckp camtu…n i think he was right..abis nak wat caner…now jiwa da kacau..padahal aku sndri yg carik kes kn..aiseh..nape la gatal sgt tgn ni nak view page org…now..hati aku yg kacau bilau…tgk eh…dasyat tak dasyat permainan hati nih..sekeping gambar..pon bole wat kite rasa nak nangis..dat is how i feel now..nyesalllll nyeeeerrr….

itula kiter…yg suke cari masalah..n ramai jugak yg suke lari dari masalah..huhu..mane aku tau kat page tuh ader gamba tuh..sob..sob..sabarlaaa..ingt tak alia ckp ape..now aku da supersede org tuh..aiiisssh..hati..tabahlaaaa….

maybe hati aku panas..sbb tdik bru pas goreng kopok ikan..so..panas ar kn duduk kat dapur..hurm…ntah laaa….

lalalalala….holiday is totally holy..huhu…only if u spend it wisely..like i am..gosh…spending my holiday to finish my assignment..izit consider as wise???ok…academically wise la kot…well..still i can fill the satisfaction even plus i got butt cramp sumore..ok la tuh…lalalalal….not watching movies…didnt stay up for chatting insted doin my ass-ignment…ok dats is how i spell it…ass-ignment..muahahaha…English vocabs is fun isnt it??aper pon…ass-ignment sume da redi…tinggal nak print n nak submit jek..ok as for the icl..K.I.V k….criminal sgt la paper nih….
anyhow..it really piss me out when i got to cancel all my plan…to ikut baba to dinner n lunch..but turns up…he cancel it in the very last minute…eeiiiiii…..sabar2…my baba is such a busy person eh??being busy for dat lousy wakil rakyat!!!ergh..how i hate dis guy…n how on earta our PM chose him n give him a mandate to be a representative..to hell laaa….all i can say is that..in this 4 years time he did nothing to Malays..n ive been wonderin wheres da money all gone..haiyak…it is a big question mark here..but again..if only i can talk to him…hello stupid guy…da malays is getting no better..if u culd only spend your precious time ..look at the youth in BATU who always spend their nite in jail..n be frens to all the junkers..they need your support..muahahahahah…jgn la nak jage your own race kn..we re MALAYSIAN maaaa….stick together…perhaps..if all the races in malaysia stick together..we mite have a better MAlaysia in future..who knows???
but..to think again…we wont change…arent we…we..the malays even more..we love this situation..we get what we ask for..well…the authorities are so generous…isnt it???heheheh…they want public holidays…let give them..they want an increment…sure, y not!!!…they want free text book..of course,it is for the education…..hurm…so..mintak la aper2 pon…u will get it..despite all the poor people out there..let we wish that the government virtue which is zero poverty can be achieved…aminnnnn…….
erk…crap..crap…tu la..sbnarnyer geram when mak n baba is so busy with the general election..so…askin myself..naper diorang busy sgt..to think again..if they dont..who else???plus baba always said..he done all this things..for the sake of MELAYU….supaya anak2 dia n melayu2 len sume tak susah nnti…hurm..i should remember dat all  the time….
bye2 holiday..no more holidays n plays… i swear.. im goin to be a better me…naek cuti nih…forget about all da dmndest thing in my life..keep my heart strong..seal it tight….wutever  will come..i will be strong..i promise!you go girl!!!!!

tis is damned funny..today..during the physical training..im fainted!!pergh….malu siot…tak fit lgsg ar..adeh..now..im worried..if they mite not let me in for the recruitment..sob..sob…alahai…budak2 ni sumer risau jek tgk aku jatuh flat..hukhukhuk..rilex ar fren..maybe im fainted due to lack of sleep..n im not havin my breakfast..ok..bruises are all over my body..ssshhh…tp..pas tuh aku ok jek..maybe recharge tenaga kot..coz boler lari lagik..sume muka stock risau jek..lyn..chea..chipek..oja..alalal…cayunk korang..jgn risau k..aku takkan ader komplikasi lgik…hahahha…saje wat gempak..nak rase pengsan tu cner…TT…aiyuckz..
my sis said dat im suicidal..but..yeah..i like it anyway…at least takder ar aku buang mase kn..dr tido jek..bek pegi wat aktiviti pekdah tu..huhuhuuh…dapat elaun lgik…
dapat ikan comel lagik..hahahahah…tis is da best part of all..seriyesly..im lookin forward for the recruitment…hurm..musykil..betul kah??

to be frank..i cant believe myself joinin tis rej 515..territorial army a.k.a askar wataniah…dont ask me for wut reason n wuts da benefit…i hve no answer…but yeah..still i like it very much…lg pon..bkn nak jd askar pon for the rest of my life..
life is about collectin the experience rite…so..mase muda nila aku nak gunakan..with hope..i wont regreting my teenage life in the future…hehehe..poyo nyer la bunyi…nak tido!!

ok..tis is no kiddin…tibe2 rase sgt tak selesa wif all people around me..i really wanna go home..i realli want to be in my room..on my own bed..shhhh..how pathetic my life culd be…is it due to the very reason dat i miss my home so much???or..yeah..tired perhaps..yalah..wif all the assignment..test..studies..dateline..training..crap..crap..teeetttt..so..here i am..kat umah..but still naper rase cam tak selesa..haiyaa!!!!ok..ok..im feel damn gud to be back wif my mak..my baba..n my katil..selesa nyer my katil..tak mcm katil kat kolej tuh..huhuhuuhu….test…test..result…result..can i get a better result??????????????????????????

salamz…
dear puppet..how life keep on changing…so do i..
its been a while for myself..stop doin thing which i like da most..i know..i’ve been acting stupid for this couple of month..n now..im gettin better i guess..i mean im good..for better or for worse..

a new semester had begun..n a day after tomorrow..its a new year!!!!!..goodbye 2007..welcome 2008…my only query is..after all this while..have i done nything which i can call my life satisfaction???????????????????hohoho..LOL…i guess..naahh..i did not..its pathetic..im no longer a kids..yet i dont think im an adult..i dont see thing as much as an adult should be..i seldom actin like a child..n sumtimes i make people annoyed wif me on purpose..hahaha..plus..i do make people laugh too..is that wut we call satisfaction??i dont think so..again..

i rather call it is a satisfaction..when i can do..anything which i reli want to do..be wuteve i want to be n live happily wif people i concern da most..lalalala…wut a happy endin life..but life juz dont go so well..like we want it to be…how complicated..so..better i stop for now
since…lalalalala……i dont know wut im babbling about..wutever it is..Happy new year puppet..happy new year syera..may this comin new year.. wil be a goooood start for me…O Allah..only U know what are da best for me….

hurm..bgn dgn penuh berkobar untuk pergi ke 2nd year of my llb..
suddnely..tarraaaa..tepet saya tidak bernafas lgik..pon tak dpt mengeluarkn lgu laguan fevret saye lgik..sedinyer..brg kesayangan saye..sgt syg..sgt..dan sgt lgik..
abg bagik tuh mase besday 17 taun..sob..sob..wawawawa…cner nih..
bagaimana nih??wuaa..nak nangis..sob..sob..mp3 kesayangan saye….sob..sob…