The Puppet Show

huhuuhu..sambung kat ner ek??ok..i did tell eid bout the offer from sms muar..n told him..i wont go..konon time tuh mcm..da susah2 kitorang bru dpt together takkan ar nak blah camtu kan..dia diam jek time tuh ..kat canteen..akak dorm aku da usha..dia takut aku nangis lgik..aku ckp kat eid..aku tak nak gie skola tu..sbb da syg kat tikl..member pon best2..dia dgr jek..padahal dia ckp ngan classmate aku yg jadik posmen tuh dia nak ckp something important dat evening..hhoho..kitorang pki posmen..tak ingat ar name dia..bdak class aku..awam 2..n rumate eid..hurm..last2..b4 kitorang disperse..dia ckp..syera..eid rasa..syera mesti  akan pegi jgak..tpi takper..eid caya syera tak pegi..hurm…he was rite..
mak n baba giler2 nak aku pegi skolah muar tuh..aiseh..sampi aunty2 pon msuk campur..so..on friday..my parents come ove to pick me up..duh..aku mmg tak phm time tuh aper best nyer skolah sains tuh..n until now actually..jahat kn saya inih..brg2 sumer mak yg kemas..aku wat tak tau jer..siap gie clas lagik pgi tuh..hurm..time tuh pikir kat eid jek..so..i asked my clasmate to call eid during recess..so,he come..dia trus ckp..kan eid da ckp..time tuh aku terus jeling classmate aku tuh coz bgtau kat eid..tp bkn salah dia..block bdak karen jauh dri awam..so,reason aku tukar skola mmg plaing logic nak heret eid dtg situ..thanks fren..aku pon ckp kat eid..sorry..syera btol2 taknak pegi..sorry sgt..takper ied..kiter bole cam dulu lgik..dulu pon eid dok asrama kan..die ckp..dulu syera duk u mah..now..2-2 da duduk asrama..syera nnti jdi bdak skola sains….mase tuh aku cam da tau jek aper akan jdik..aku ckp kat dia..jgn mcm tu..kiter same jek..result pmr pon samer..kite chat la..jumpe ker time cuti..sorri eid..mak n baba nak sgt syera pegi..

hurm..kitorang diam jer pastu..tibe2 dia bangun dri tangga depan class aku..n ckp..dah la syera..nak pegi..pegi jer lahh…….

dia pon trus blah dr situ..hurm…kat situ gak air mata saya tumpah..cewaahh..cam drama melayu kan..but it happens..

since dat day..dia mmg tak carik aku lgsg..from syahid..aku dgr dia da fly balik..n slalu kena denda..yalah..teknik tuh strick skit..pon dia gaduh ngan bdak alam shah..hur,..biler aku email dia..aku rasa dia tak baca pon agaknyer..surat pon dia tak reply lagik..bile tanyer mak..ader eid call..mak ckp takde rpon..smpi lah now….kalau lah aku tak pegi skola sains..huhu..mcm nyesal eh bunyi..taklah..tak nyesal..pon tak mengeluh..tp aku kesal kitorang da tak jdi kawan lgik..life must go on..now aku pon da happy wif sumone..pon aku harap dia happy ngan life dia skrg..n bkn sperti yg aku dgr..kdg2 teringat..so..surat2 tuh mmg jdi pengubat la..pernah nangis maser bacer surat dia..n biler dia tulis.."weh syera..jgn buang surat2 kiter tau..nnti kalu kite kawen..bley bgi anak2 kiter bace..kalu tak..ko bole bace biler rindu aku"
im wondering bout one thing..did he remembered me aswell??did he actually did dat on purpose??sumer pon..btol2 harap dpt jumpa dia lagik…

well..eid..kat maner pon eid skrg..syera doakan yg terbaik utk eid..

salam…
td kemas bilik n buang maner2 yg tak berkenaan..suddenly..jumpe kotak lame..ader surat2..from my dearie bestie..sue..n my dear fren..mohd firdauz bin ruba’ai(wif ‘z’..as wut he always told me)..hehhe..he is a nice guy..we were 13 years old back then..started to know each other thru mirc..channel 13 rasenyer..form 1…so..kitorang pon chat ar sampi abis holiday..biler holiday abis..dia pon mintak no.phone umah..yelah..dulu2 maner ader hp kn..so..i gave it to him..n confident giler dia takkan contact..da sah2 lah dia bdak skola asrama..sekolah menengah agama kluang ok..hehehe..plus..tak suke ngan dia..kasar giler..ader ker suke ati jer ckp aku bangang la..pale otak la…isk2..hehehhe..

he did call me actually..first day after back to school..siap ajak chattin lgik..rupa2 nyer dia fly..kuang ajo tol..aku pon trus jek sembur dia..mmg da nature kitorang kot…dia bodokan aku..aku bodokan dia..sesuai la tu!!aku ckp..kalu nk kwn aku jgn fly2 lagik..jgn smoking gak..maka sejak ari ituh dia pon menjadi pencinta public phone pling setia kat skola dia tuh..hohoooo..kalu dia call mesti maki2 dulu kawan2 dia yg tepon awek2 kata nyer..pastu aku pn sembur..mcm ar skrg ko tgh tepon mama ko..huhuu..terdiam lah beliau….

i still rember..1st time dpt surat dia..it was a raya card..mak eh..huduh sungguh tulisan..tp dia siap pesan..kalu tak phm tanyerla..muahahahha..cacatkn??mujurla aku phm..so..starting from dat..kitorang pon tulis2 surat..2-3 muka surat plak tu..kalah karangan pmr..mase cuti  mid year..dia tanyer..tak kasar ker aku kau jerk..aku ckp bkn ko mmg da mmg kasar??so..last2..dia decide nak panggil aku syera..n aku decide nak panggil dia "eid"..naper ek..ntah laa..rahsia..tp dia mmg payah giler nak brubah..even ngan my sis pon dia berkau aku jek..huhuhu..mase besday saya..dia bgik purse billabong..n story book..we even change a question paper..this situation continuosly happen for 3 years..smpi ar kitorang abis pmr..

he said..he love me..im his first girl..n i trust his word..huhu…tgk cara pon bole tau..plus..he is a man who kept his words.. laalala….yg paling ingat..dia call n ckp..
’syera..aku syg ko..nak wat caner eh??’..silly eid..how shuld i know??oh ya..he stop smoking as well..sweet kn..he love to play guitar so much..n promised me..he will played his guitar live..in front of me..but now..i gess..da promise will remain a promise..its amazing to know someone like him..he change a lot…erm..dri memula aku knal dia…we never met..smpi la abis pmr..dia ajak kuar..hohoho..jumpa kat mid valley tuh…yg pling tak tahan..i still remember tis..when i met him..i did asked tis.."naper pki kasut kaler oren??pelik beb.."hahahaha..muka dia brubah terus..da ar tuh..dia pon slumber jek jalan..even aku ngan akak time tuh..adoi..kan da ckp dia nih kurang manners skit.tp sweet..dia teman kitorang tunggu taxi..

dat nite..he confessed…i told him..well..kiter tunggu result pmr ok..so..he said ok..pmr nyer result kuar..n we both dpt msuk TIKL..or technical institute of kl..or..sekolah menengah teknik kuala lumpur..amazing kan..huhu..time tu rasa..alalala…berjodohnyer..hehehhe…life was so much fun back then..pas prep jek kitorang jumper..oh ya..aku bdak civil..dia plak bdak electrical..akak2 dorm aku sumer da tau..huhu…masa baba n mak dtg melawatkn..dia tgk jek dr jauh kat canteen..biler tanyer pastu naper tak dtg dekat..tkut kena terajang ngan aku..cis…kuang asam punyer eid..bkn takut ngn baba..ngan aku plak..hehehhe..mase rehat..dia blanjer..mkn hot dog n all..tp sumer pon dr jauh..yalah..nnti aku kena marah ngan akak senior..dia plak kena blasah ngan abg senior..hurm..

but..da good days is not lasting..it lasted only 1 month…aku call umah..suddenly..mak ckp..dpt offer sekolah len..sms muar..huhu..so i said..so wut??dont care..wanna stay here..plus it is outside kl..muar??duh..never been to dat place b4..but..my parents insist..huhuh..sedihnyer…masa tuh..yg terpikir..bdak2 kemuning(dorm kesayangan saya) n akak2 dorm yg baik bangat(kak ad..kak sya..)..n my dear fren eid…hurm..aku nangis..pastu aku ckp ngan mak..taknak pegi gak..

i did told eid bout dat offer…one evening..2 be continue…

enhurm…btolkan rahsia di hati..saper yg tau..luka dihati..saper yg nampak…diam jer laa..taknak org len pon ssh hati jgak tgk aku sedih n ssh hati..especially mak n baba…well..mak cam tau yg anak dia nih tgk brokenhearted..tp aku ngan slmber nyer jwb..sediy..cuti2 nih takder duit..hehehehe…so dpt ar pow baba…last2 kantoi tgh nangis ngan mak..hurm..mak..u are the angel of my heart…hurm..

why should i cry?love is painful….

salamz…huhuuhu..lamer eh tak mencarut kat sinih..boring la life rite noe..mmg ar life ni ups n downs…tp ni da downs tahap cipan..heheheh..nak carik ikan baru!!!yeayayeyayaa….crap..again..crap…kenapa syarah syahira suka mengarut n gelak jer??inilah soalan yg diajukan oleh baba ku tersyg..ba..anak mu inih soket otak dia da cacat kot…hehehehhe..takper la…rahsia di hati saper yg tau..luka dihati pon org tak nampak…

                             im back…wif new spirit of course…Alhamdulillah…i really hope syarah syahira is back for real!!!..no more plays..n no more pranks..no more stupid jokes like i always did..heheheh..for Godness sake..i must reali2 focus n worh hard tis time..wuteve wil be will be..but i must study well n play well also…… -sign-                                

  kenapa saya menjadi sgt malas?????ergghhhh…nak study pon mcm nak kena gi berperang,,,wuaaaa…wuts happening??syera..are u insane???i guess so…erk..maner penah org gile ngaku dia gile..maknanyer aku normal lah??erk..study..study…LLB..LLm..rite??hhuhuhuu..saya perlukn supplementary food…juga vitamin..

hehehe..dr.zaid..dr.zaid..how funny..his class is so much fun..i can sit in his lecture for an hour..n i wont stop laughing…his language is one thing..n he is so cute…hehehhe..hope-hope ILS II dpt A..hahaha..hah,kn da ikut dia..hope-hope..adeh..first week of my new semester…giler down ar first day tuh..acah tak abis2 dengki kat ammy ngan riz coz diorang dpt compartmet..tingkt 5 plak tuh..terpakse ar aku tadah telinga sbb dia dengki sgt..tp it is a blessing to be back wif him..it feel so good..acah,ammy,riz,alia,iejan,ca8, ella n myself..wuhuuuuuuuu..gegak gempita satu blok D nusaibah tuh..tp tak syok gak..sem nih byk jer class tak samer ngan diorag..hah tp biler jumpe kat aikol tuh..muler ar sumer tunjuk perangai….plus..sem ni cam sumer pon ader ikan baru..nyum…nyum..heheheh…best!!best!!sayang kamu sume!!!!

class….torts ngan alsagoff( pasni gie clas nak bwk sikat)oppzz…im kidding prof..contract wif naquib(gandem[gandum laa]..heheh) legal methods wif dr Ainul(sshhss..she needs to learn how to keep quiet..heheh) n transaction in islamic law II wif dr.Azam(adeh..dr kerek nih..tp macho beb)..hurm..Alhamdulillah..they all look fine..cam takder byk songeh cam lecturer len..cant wait to spend another 1 hour wif them!!!

p/s—–>pakcik…mish u…sob..sob..

-syera-

aku dan hari esok-

salamz…

dear all…hurm..pernah dgr hadis nih??"kesudahan yg baik adalah untuk orang2 yg bertaqwa"…hurm..i guess apa yg berlaku dlm hidup aku minggu nih satu petunjuk Allah..yg hambanya nih byk sgt terpesong dr jln nya..duh…it is so tormenting..trust me..i never been in this stage before..n to make thing worst..i feel lonely..dont have no one to spill evrything..hurm..

Hati ni bukan mengeluh..tp terasa sesal yg amat sgt…diri ni jugak yg byk bersalah..ujian ni btol2 mengajar aku yg langit tak selalunya cerah..n pelangi tak kn selalu muncul lepas hujan..biar berapa byk kepahitan hari semalam,hidup hari nih pasti akan diteruskn..dan hari esok,walau belum pasti kemunculan nya..kita akan tetap terus merancang..betul tak??rupa2nya, hidup ni terikat pd 2 benda jer..kebaikan-keburukan..kehidupan-kejahatan..kejayaan-kegagalan..kekayaan-kemiskinan…cinta-benci…negatif-positif..unik kn??yg paling unik…ibu-ayah…

Berapa ramai antara kita yg slalu bersyukur dgn kewujudan mereka??dan berapa ramai pulak yg slalu melukakan mereka??percayalaa…dlm kita tak sedar..kita selalu aje lukakn hati mereka..bkn kita membenci,cuma biasalah terlalu asyik dgn dunia sendri,kita ada yg lupa tentang perasaan org tua kita..hurm..teringat hadis Rasululluah.."keredhaan Allah terletak pd keredhaan ibu bapa kita.."bayangkn,bile kita lukan hati mereka,n we live in a fucking life evry single day….duh..namun mereka tetap terus tersenyum..dan tetap terus syg pde kita..Tuhan..anugerah ibu dan ayah itu adalah yg plg berharga dlm hidup aku..mak..baba..im sorry…n i really love you..

-syera-

aku dan hari esok..

salamzz..

recently i’ve watched a very sad movie bout a struggling dad to bring alive his sick daughter..duh..how sad..n yeah..trust me..i do cry..well..dats da best thing a cam do rite..hahahha..ok..of course at the end the daughter still passed away but she managed to smile and she even asked his father to smile with her..this is the catchsy part whne she said dat.."paps,for all that u hv done for me wut else should i asked for??"..kesian kn..huuhuu..gud daughter la dis girl..ok fine..it is just a movie..

but still a gud movie is a movie that will hve an impact on your life..agree??same goes wif me..yelaa..thingking wut my baba da buat for me..nak besarkn kn anak2 dia lgik..plus his 7 brothers n sisters(tis was b4 laa)..hurm..if i were about to asked my baba wut life means to him..perhaps he will hve a many different kind of definition..huhuh…sediy nyer saya..

so..takdir ker yg mencaturkn hidup kiter??ramai antara kiter TODAY…yg cepat sgt nyerah nasib pada takdir..skit2..da takdir..pathetically..most of ppl who said dat is "my org melayu n muslim"(dat includes me n u)..hohoho..nk wat cner..kdg2 terpikir gak aper yg tersurat dgn jelas nye dalam our HOLY AL-QURAN

"ALLAH takkn mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkn kaum itu sendiri berusaha untuk mengubahnya"

there u go..so..bkn ker tu makna nyer…takdir itu terletaknya pada hujung usaha kiter..sebyk maner usaha kiter dan seikhlas dan sejujur maner usaha kiter..aper jua hasil yg kita dpt..maka itulah takdir kita..mmg smuanya ketentuan Allah..tp kn kita wajib percaya pada qada dan qadar…well..one of it..mmg kite yg kena usaha sndri utk ubahnyer!!sekian sajer usrah kiter pada kali inih..

hahahahaha…agaknyer..otak saya inih terkejut kot..bgn awal sgt..terima kasih pada ayam2 sekalian yg mengalahkan alarm hp ku(lgu linkin park lgik)..ayam the great,..hidup ayam!!!!

thanks to all who read dis..muahahaahahaaa

syera                                                                 

-aku dan kenangan-

hehehhe..

chak…sajer nak test…okies..

here are da list name…

1. rumates aku(acah-riz-ammy n kura2 kitorang)
2. bdk2 seblah bilik aku (alia-ca8-iejan-ella)
3. bdk2 clas akuh(ejad-hied-shak (n da gang)-ifah-tajul-farhan-azah-sume2 ar)
4. hurm..senior2 kat lawsoc office uh..
5. member2 karisma

okies…tu smua bdk2 kat garden of knowledge and virtue tue lah..4 thn kitorg berkhemah kat situ..ni baru nak masuk sem 2..another 3 years to go..duh…pjg lagik rupenyer jln idup inih..okies..im not goin to babblin as ever..ok..i love to babbling around..so wut??my nature…

i miss my bestfren..she is now in russia..its been awhile since we see each other..hurm..really miss her..dear GODNESS..please take a good care of her..she is a nice girl..i can sure YOU!!!

oh ya..guys..please be noticed..da atlantuya case..da hearing starts today..n da opening is really a damn shockin one..duh..i wanna be like dat!!i swear i want it!im wondering how is it feels..is it good??or is it a temporary feeling n its scared to your nerve??wutever laa..i still want it!!bdk degil nih..huhuhuuu..

wanna take my shower now..daaaaaa~~~~~~~~

p/s—–>erm..i miss him too…there in jaybee..